My Newest Guardian Angel

My Dad called today, and as soon as I heard his voice I knew that my grandmother Mimi had died. I had asked about her not even a week before, and he’d told me that even though her mind was slipping further and further from reality, her body was still very healthy. But she’d been on my mind all week, and I just had a feeling that she wasn’t long for this world.

My grandfather Papa (her husband) died about 9 years ago. Since his death, I often dream of him. Most of the time I know they’re just dreams, because he looks sickly or strange. But then there are the dreams that I know are something more.

One in particular stands out. Papa and I were sitting outside at a patio table, and on his face was that shit-eating grin that I remember so well. But y’all, he was glowing. Gorgeous white light surrounded him, and I was filled with so much joy and peace. When I woke up, I was overcome with emotion, knowing that it wasn’t just a dream. And since then, I’ve known that he’s always with me when I need him. And that brings me so much comfort.

But this week I had a dream in which a bunch of my family members came over for a fun get-together. I was a bit taken aback when my dead Aunt Carol walked in the door, but someone at the party told me that wasn’t Carol, that she just looked exactly like her. OK, no biggie, I thought.

Papa was there, and I recognized him as the real Papa and not just the dream version. I gave him a big hug, and I was very happy to be at this gathering with all of the folks. Mimi was there, which was unusual, because I don’t dream about her that often. But she was just as bright and vivid and happy as she always was (before she went into the nursing home), and so I didn’t think anything of it.

But now I recognize it for what it was, a preparation for today. They were letting me know that she’d be going soon, and that there were going to be lots of people there welcoming her, and celebrating her arrival.

Of course I’m sad. But when I think of my Mimi and Papa together again, and the utter joy they must have felt today upon being reunited, I feel that same joy, and I want to celebrate. And that’s precisely what I’m going to do.

I’ll be headed to Oklahoma City for the funeral, and I’m very excited to see all of the family that I’ve missed seeing for so many years. This is the family gathering from my dream. Mimi and Papa will be there, smiling down at the huge clan that the two of them created.

And the best part is that I have a new guardian angel.

Hi Mimi! It’s good to have you back. 🙂



  1. Big Brother
    Posted September 10, 2010 at 4:54 pm | Permalink

    I am very sad today, but I am happy Mimi is in a better place. She lived a great long life. Heck….I wouldnt know how to make gravy if it werent for her. She threw ice cream at me once at Thanksgiving….just because I didnt want it on my pie. I will miss you Mimi….but I am glad you are back with Papa.

  2. ElectraWoman
    Posted September 10, 2010 at 5:02 pm | Permalink

    So, so sorry to hear the news, DynaGirl. I love you very much, and I’m glad you’re going to get to have a big family celebration to celebrate Mimi.

    • justmeandthevoices
      Posted September 20, 2010 at 9:50 am | Permalink

      Thanks, my beautiful other half of our dynamic duo! It was a fabulous celebration filled with joy. And seeing everyone was so awesome. Totally reminds me of where I get the more disturbing parts of my personality. HA!!

  3. Posted September 10, 2010 at 5:12 pm | Permalink

    I am so sorry about Mimi, but in all honesty it sounds like you’ve got the right attitude. Nice to see you end this post with a smiley face. And who couldn’t use another guardian angel? xo

    • justmeandthevoices
      Posted September 20, 2010 at 9:49 am | Permalink

      Thanks, toots. It was a great celebration, and so good to see all of the family. Not gonna wait 10 years to see them again like last time.

  4. Posted September 12, 2010 at 5:13 pm | Permalink

    I’m so sorry for your loss. You have a wonderful, calming positivity.

    • justmeandthevoices
      Posted September 20, 2010 at 9:47 am | Permalink

      Thank you so much! That makes me feel so happy!

  5. Posted September 13, 2010 at 1:11 pm | Permalink

    So sorry for your loss, but happy that you’ve gained another guardian angel (you can be a troublemaker and need a team of angels!).

    • justmeandthevoices
      Posted September 20, 2010 at 9:45 am | Permalink

      Me, a troublemaker?? Never! 😉 OK, you’re right, I can use all the angels I can get!!

  6. Posted September 22, 2010 at 8:40 am | Permalink

    Sorry I am just now commenting! I am so sorry to hear this Suzy. I truly do bet that they are watching over you. just to give you a little relief- here’s a laugh: if you see me in your dreams PLEASE give me a heads up so I can make preperations. 🙂

    • justmeandthevoices
      Posted September 28, 2010 at 2:42 pm | Permalink

      Thanks sweetie! And I will bes ure to let you know if I dream about you!! Can’t wait to see you guys this weekend!

  7. Posted September 22, 2010 at 2:20 pm | Permalink

    A beautifully written post. I wish my dreams had such resonance and meaning. The closest I’ve ever gotten is a dancing frog. But I think that was just watching too much WB.

    • justmeandthevoices
      Posted September 28, 2010 at 2:41 pm | Permalink

      That totally cracked me up! Yes, you definitely need some more interesting dreams. Sometimes mine are just WAYYYYY out there.

  8. Posted September 27, 2010 at 8:01 pm | Permalink

    I’m sorry to hear about Mimi. {hugs}

    • justmeandthevoices
      Posted September 28, 2010 at 2:40 pm | Permalink

      Thanks so much! Now I’m going to go get caught up on your blog!!

  9. Posted August 8, 2011 at 4:54 pm | Permalink

    the lake that burneth forever yes, i crave write something like this but didnt obtain time, may i repost this My Newest Guardian Angel « just Me…And The Voices

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